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Wednesday, July 21, 2010

My Beautiful Mom ~



I wish I had positive news, but I don't. My beautiful mom is getting worse and it's time for me to let her know that it's ok and she can let go. My heart is breaking and I am loosing my best friend, my most favorite person in the world and I feel lost without her. 


There is no way that she will recover from such a massive and extensive stroke as she had, and there is so much swelling of her brain. It's just her and I right now, as I type this, I have made the final (we were trying and hoping for some improvement) decision (along with the agreement with her husband and family) that tomorrow late morning, early afternoon when we are all together to let her go on her own.


I know this is what she would have wanted, this is for her, not for me or anyone else but for her.
I want to thank each and everyone of my wonderful friends, genea-friends and family members for your love, support and prayers...I know that I could not have gotten this far without you.


{{Hugs}}  ~                                                                    

36 comments:

Lori said...

Oh Gini,
I'm so very sorry. You are in my thoughts and prayers today as you go through this very painful time.

Claudia's thoughts said...

I am so sorry Gini, I have gone through what you know will. I still find things that I wished I had asked and cherish the memories of her.

Carol said...

No fancy words, just hugs, fairy dust and prayers for peace.

CMPointer said...

Gini, I am so very sorry. Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers at this difficult time.

Blessings,
Caroline

Leslie Ann said...

My thoughts are with you Gini. So sorry you have to go through this.

BIG
{{HUGS}}

Leah Kleylein said...

Gini, I am so so sorry. My heart is breaking for you and your family.

Amanda (the librarian) said...

Thoughts, prayers and hugs for you and your family at this difficult time.

Karen said...

Gini, She will live on in your hearts & memories. Its never easy to say goodbye to someone you hold so dearly.
My thoughts & prayers are with you. Blessings & prayers...

TennLady said...

Gini,

It's a very hard thing to let a parent go. Know that God will take over your worries.

Russ said...

Gini and newly found cousin,

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Russ

IrishEyes said...

Dear Gini, I am so very sorry your life has been touched by this. I send prayers and all good thoughts to your mom, you, and all of your friends and family! Jennifer

Miriam said...

Hugs and peace to you and your family, Gini, as your mom becomes one of the Ancestors.

Kathryn Doyle said...

Gini,
When we lost my mother-in-law, her very wise hospice nurse told us at the end to say exactly what you have said. Tell her you love her, tell her how much she has meant in your life and tell her that she has taught you well and you will be fine after she is gone. My thoughts are with you.

Nolichucky Roots said...

I'm so very sorry, Gini. Know that you both are in my prayers. Susan

Mary said...

Gini...along with everyone else my prayers and thoughts are with you at this time. Know that a lot of people are praying for you.

Thomas MacEntee said...

There are no words that I can put here that are sufficient. Just know that you and Steve and the rest of the family are in my thoughts and prayers. I kept thinking of you and your Mom all during my train ride back home from Springfield yesterday. You have been and will continue to be a great daughter of a great woman. Nothing you do, no decision you make will ever diminish that.

kinfolknews said...

Gini,

My thoughts and prayers are with you and yours at his most difficult time. I pray that you and your mom will have peace.

Regina

GrannyPam said...

Gini, prayers and support for you and your family. God bless.

Becky Jamison said...

I'm in tears, Gini. I'm sorry but I know this is the right thing for your family to do. My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family-truly!

Cheryl Palmer said...

You know my heart is with you and that your mom loves you so very much. You are doing the most gracious thing for your mother in telling her it is ok to let go. Thoughts, prayers, peace, love and hugs to you and your family.

Lisa Swanson Ellam said...

Gini:

I'm so sorry the news isn't better. I'll be thinking of you, your mom and your family tomorrow. Peace to all of you as you travel this difficult road.

Lisa

Sandy said...

Dear Gini,
I have also been where you are....it is one of the hardest places you will ever be....please know that I ma sending you and your family loving support at this hard hard time in your life. Sandy

Joan Miller (Luxegen) said...

Dear Gini,
Please take comfort that we are thinking of you and your family at this sad time.
-Joan

Elizabeth O'Neal said...

Gini - I know exactly what you are going through. July 27th will mark the 9 year anniversary of my mother's death. It gets easier, but the pain never goes away completely.

Tell your mother you love her, and that you'll miss her always... then tell her it's ok for her to go. If it's her time, the decision will be made for you.

You and your family are in our prayers. {{{Hugs}}}

Elizabeth

Jenna said...

Ah Gini, I've been right where you are, nine years ago yesterday. You have my sympathy and my empathy. Keep your head up.

Love and prayers to you and your family.
Jenna

Craig Manson said...

May God give you and your family comfort and peace. This must be very hard and I'm sorry you are having to face it now.

Greta Koehl said...

I'll be praying for you and your family and that you be surrounded by love and peace.

A. CAIN said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you during this time. I pray His peace and comfort overtake you.

-AMY

Marion said...

Gini, I´m so sorry. She is beside Dad, uncle Helmut, Oma and Opa now and looks for us. I think all the time of my family so fare away. Send you many hugs and wish I could be there.
With much love

Marion

T.K. said...

I'm so sorry, Gini. My thoughts are with you.

Christine H. said...

Gini,
I'm so sorry. My thoughts are with you.
Christine

Kathy said...

Gini,
I'm very sorry. Hang in there and know that we think of you and send our prayers.

Jo said...

Thinking about you and all your family - I know how it feels, so take comfort in whatever you can and know that there are lots of us out here thinking about you all. Jo

Lisa Wallen Logsdon said...

Gini...as I told you on Twitter...I've been there this year too. My heart breaks for you because I know how you hurt. But it gets better! You will be OK.

Leah said...

Gini, I am so sorry about your mom. I'll be sending you good thoughts in this difficult time...

Lovey said...

God Bless you and keep you and your family Gini. I'm sorry for your pain and the loss of your precious mom.